Early Monday evening, I checked my Facebook feed, put the phone down, and made dinner. About an hour later, I gave it a quick glance and saw the flood of news that Robin Williams died. Oh, I sighed, and then the cruel punch hit.
I wasn’t going to write about Robin Williams. Then I read Matt Walsh’s blog post, “Robin Williams didn’t die from a disease, he died from his choice.” Matt is being hit pretty hard from a lot of sides for stating his viewpoint on this issue. But personally, as one who has been on the periphery of depression and suicide, I think he captured the subject perfectly.
Two good friends of mine lost their sons to suicide. One was a young man, whose depression occasionally crippled his life. The other was my godson, a teenager with a bright vibrant future. For reasons known only to them, these boys chose their death. It didn’t happen to them against their will. They consciously made a decision to end their lives.
Of suicide, Matt wrote, “The complete, total, absolute rejection of life.” “The willingness to saddle your family with the pain and misery and anger that will now plague them for the rest of their lives.”
“We are all meant to lead joyful lives. Joy is the only thing that defeats depression. No depressed person in the history of the world has ever been in the depths of despair and at the heights of joy at the same time. The two cannot coexist. Joy is light, depression is darkness. When we are depressed, we have trouble seeing joy, or feeling it, or feeling worthy of it.”
Matt’s words may appear simplistic when dealing with a complex topic, but it is truth. I remember my friend telling me after her son’s death, that on her darkest days she realized that her son lived with this terrible dark despair daily. The difference – she sobbed – is that she knew that despite this really bad day or week or month, she will feel joy again and that knowledge would sustain her through the darkness until she returned to the light.
If you struggle with that darkness. If you know someone succumbing to depression. Please don’t look the other way. Encourage them to find help. If you want to know more about understanding suicide, preventing suicide, or coping with suicide loss, please visit The American Foundation for Suicide Prevention. AFSP maintains a National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-8255.